I sat out on the cold cement step, a child on each of my sides. The only light was the moon which cast an eerie glow across the thick fog. Suddenly we heard a loud animal scream followed by a shallow howl. It was close. Real close. We all stared at the corner of the house. Watching. Waiting. For whatever was lurking to come creeping around the corner to devour us.
“I hope the bus comes really soon,” my five year old whispered. I couldn’t agree with her more.
I shuddered in fear as I thought of the real possibility that there was a viscous monster, I mean animal, prowling around nearby. What would I really do? How would I protect my precious children?
Sure, we could run inside. All the way around the house, to the door that sat on the back side. Surely we would be monster stew before we ever made it that far.
We could run through the slider that stood proudly behind us. So close. Yet very likely locked. Why did the husband have to lock that every night? Why didn’t I ever think to slip through the living room and unlock it before coming outside? Even if it were unlocked, I knew that shall something come lurking around the corner that we all stared at, we would barely have time to make it inside.
As we sat in silence. Listening. Watching. Waiting. I wondered what I would really do. I needed that pistol I occasionally talked about. Surely with a pistol in hand I would feel safe. Protected. Able to protect.
As the days passed and the mornings got darker and darker. The woods that surrounded our house. The field that beckoned to wild life to come hither nearby. I would carry a gun to the bus stop every morning. Hidden. A secret armor of protection, a wing of protection to wrap my children in.
What would the bus driver think? If she ever knew that is. It is my property so it should be my right. But is it really? Is the bus stop truly my property? And what about the other parents, would I really want them to all be carrying pistols of protection around my children?
What did I really care what the bus driver thought? My five year old doesn’t even like the bus driver, and she likes everyone.
The bus pulls up. It’s flashing lights piercing through the foggy darkness. I bid my children farewell and very cautiously walk back into the house, slamming the door a little too hurriedly on my way in.
That was two cups of coffee and a sunrise ago. Now, I’m ready to face the day with slightly more bravery. At least, until tomorrow morning when I must battle the forces of darkness once again.