~My ‘before coffee’ response to a story I see far too often, “Stupid, Making Everything Racial . . . ” You need to read the story, to ‘understand’ mine.~
This story appropriately ties into the one I re-blogged yesterday. (I’m starting to feel a little racist sharing all the racism posts. Really, I’m just trying to find my way….)
This story is WHY I do not understand what they are going through. This story, is what I have grown up watching. Watching the entitled ‘black man’ think the world owes him something because of the color of his skin. That the inconveniences of daily life should not inflict them, for no other reason, than the color of their skin.
If I am given the run around registering for college (like yesterday!) it is because I am trying to finish registration on the first day classes start. The college is swamped. Stress levels are high. And, it’s a Monday. People don’t take to Mondays very well. If a black person were given the run around yesterday, it was because they were black. Obviously.
I see THIS everywhere, everyday… my entire life… in my little piece of the world.
I’m not singling out black males either. I see this in many races, male and female. The little things, everywhere, that all add up to the big things. Such as, to communicate, I must learn Spanish. Why can’t you learn English? Why is it MY responsibility? Why must I always do all the work?
Do you know why I want to learn American Sign Language? The only language that I had ever desired to learn. I used to think that it was because I was born deaf. I used to think, that it was because I had a “special” connection with those that were deaf. But, I’m not so sure that is true anymore. I think the real reason, is because it is the ONLY language where the other person does not have the option to learn mine. The ONLY language that it IS my responsibility.
Is it wrong, that this is what I have observed pertaining to racism? That THIS is all I have to form my opinions from? I know that the world is bigger than what I can see from my back porch. I know that somewhere true racism is happening. I am NOT belittling that fact. I am SEARCHING for that fact.
But, you make it very difficult for me….
I want to understand you better. Whether you are black, brown, or green. (Well… as long as you’ve seen the doctor about that green-ness, had your shots and all.) I want to reach out, into your world, and really understand. Why do you not want to understand me? What did I ever do to you? Oh, yeah… I was born, though no fault of my own, with white skin. My bad.
P.S. I’ve waited on chicken strips at KFC often, where the f*** is MY free soda?!
~ End Rant. One day, I WILL understand…. Today is not that day.